First Post!!

So I am pretty sure I have not blogged since Xanga, for those of you who remember Xanga :P.

Today I could physically feel better, but for 38 weeks 3 days pregnant, I'm just happy to be able to walk. However mentally I am feeling much better. I thought it would take intense meditation to get myself ready for this baby. But what I did not realize is that I have been getting ready for the past 9 months, mentally that is. God has been preparing me, I just know it. I'm tired of being scared of this whole labor and delivery thing. I'm going to lay my armor down and just give in to the fact that it's coming no matter how hard I fight for it to wait.

Sometimes I wish my job was as easy as Jonathans, show up, encourage every hour or so then be handed a sweet baby girl. But then again, if (think when!!) everything goes perfectly and smoothly I will be happy to be the one giving birth and being handed the baby girl to hold against my chest as she opens her eyes for the first time!! Thinking of those moments makes me not so scared.

Ready or not, my life will completely change (even more than it has) in approximately 12 days... Bring it on.